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Just a touch shy of sanity
May. 31st, 2010 09:53 amLast Day of the internship, you guys! In 24 hours I will be on a plane somewhere over Colorado or Arizona.
But never let it be said that because it's my last weekend of hospital duty, I ever slacked off. I've had a foal (filly) in the hospital all weekend with some of the most terrific, arcing, curdled-milk, fountain-like diarrhea. Unfortunately, her owner needs to bring her home today and she is far from cured (although she's much happier on treatment-- despite her diarrhea, than the half-dead raisin-looking horse she came in as). It's not a case I feel good about sending home; I give her 50/50, and would've given her 80+ percent chance of making it with continued hospitalization, but I guess that's just the way the world works.
The movers came to my old place in NY to get my furniture yesterday-- and charged me $700 MORE than the estimate to move. Suffice to say that I got hosed and am not happy. However, everyone I talk to says that's what movers do: screw you. And I had just better take it up the bum and smile. (And put a 'stop payment' on my credit card after the furniture is delivered)
I hope I can become a real person soon. I've been running on such high octane stress for so long, I don't even know how to unwind anymore. I actually got upset with my mother for buying a mop for my new house because I couldn't be there to set it up this weekend. *facepalm* We shall see.
Long and short; moving 3000 miles with exactly 20 hours off of work between jobs (and no weekends off work) = VERY BAD IDEA. I do not recommend. Luckily my family have been stars in helping do all the stuff I don't have time for (like driving those 3000 miles with my car and dog) but even the fact that they have to renews the frustration and out-of-control-ness of the move.
I hate being out of control.
I hate not being able to do everything myself.
It's almost over.
I just read Better by Atul Gawande between treatments and emergencies this weekend. Very enlightening book. It's interesting to see how many of the issues facing human doctors are the same facing us as veterinarians. I guess his whole message on getting through your internship/residency helped to put things in perspective for me (although our salaries once we're done are nothing compared to human doctors). And his take home message on not complaining is definitely one I need to take to heart (as is the advice to always keep writing). All in all: good book, very well-written, that I DO recommend.
Hope everyone's having a lovely weekend.
But never let it be said that because it's my last weekend of hospital duty, I ever slacked off. I've had a foal (filly) in the hospital all weekend with some of the most terrific, arcing, curdled-milk, fountain-like diarrhea. Unfortunately, her owner needs to bring her home today and she is far from cured (although she's much happier on treatment-- despite her diarrhea, than the half-dead raisin-looking horse she came in as). It's not a case I feel good about sending home; I give her 50/50, and would've given her 80+ percent chance of making it with continued hospitalization, but I guess that's just the way the world works.
The movers came to my old place in NY to get my furniture yesterday-- and charged me $700 MORE than the estimate to move. Suffice to say that I got hosed and am not happy. However, everyone I talk to says that's what movers do: screw you. And I had just better take it up the bum and smile. (And put a 'stop payment' on my credit card after the furniture is delivered)
I hope I can become a real person soon. I've been running on such high octane stress for so long, I don't even know how to unwind anymore. I actually got upset with my mother for buying a mop for my new house because I couldn't be there to set it up this weekend. *facepalm* We shall see.
Long and short; moving 3000 miles with exactly 20 hours off of work between jobs (and no weekends off work) = VERY BAD IDEA. I do not recommend. Luckily my family have been stars in helping do all the stuff I don't have time for (like driving those 3000 miles with my car and dog) but even the fact that they have to renews the frustration and out-of-control-ness of the move.
I hate being out of control.
I hate not being able to do everything myself.
It's almost over.
I just read Better by Atul Gawande between treatments and emergencies this weekend. Very enlightening book. It's interesting to see how many of the issues facing human doctors are the same facing us as veterinarians. I guess his whole message on getting through your internship/residency helped to put things in perspective for me (although our salaries once we're done are nothing compared to human doctors). And his take home message on not complaining is definitely one I need to take to heart (as is the advice to always keep writing). All in all: good book, very well-written, that I DO recommend.
Hope everyone's having a lovely weekend.
